1. Not expressing myself in the way my true self would (creatively, needs/boundaries); protection from conflict, rejection, both failure and success
2. I’d be more attuned to my desires and would trust that my intuition is guidance enough, and focus less on (perceived) outside expectations (like sharing music and writing, simply because it’s good for the soul! Or, very specific: setting boundaries with doctors.)
I love how you framed the balance of enoughness and wanting more – we can experience a multitude of things at once. It does not have to be one or the other! Thank you for the invitation to play bigger in my life.
I play it small in all ways - I am expanding, but it feels slow. I'm learning, and it feels clunky. I pendulum swing from small to large - I've not yet found the sweet spot. I feel messy. I know that the cap is not real; it isn't there; it's a figment of my imagination. The cap feels safer, weirdly, though. It was safer. My body needs to adjust to the potential, it needs space. The cap is the edge of my capacity - to be, receive, give. There are caps beneath the caps, layers of them. But when I choose to take the weight off and place them down, I would soften into myself, I would speak more freely to share my cosmic otherness as a gift and know I am safe to do so. When I'm ready, I would be visible, so all that I have been looking for, seeking, would find me. I think I'm ready, do I feel ready, can we ever feel ready?
I was just discussing the feeling of playing it small with my husband, though neither of us realized that is what I was talking about at the time. And it all revolved around what kind of author it is I want to be.
I am coming up on the one year anniversary of my first novel, and in that time, I feel as if I have both done a lot and not enough, unsure where it is my sense of enough lies.
Do I want to be an author who travels and talks to others about my writing more? Or am I the kind of author who is more content to take it slowly, allow people to find my work when the timing is right? Am I acting from a place f fear when I don't shout it from the rooftops, "I wrote a book!" Or am I actually staying true to myself and honoring my nervous system by stepping away from the constant hustle of promotion?
I haven't found the answer to any f these questions, but I intuitively feel the truth lies somewhere in the middle of the extremes. Thank you so much for opening up and sharing these prompts as well as your words. I really enjoy your newsletter every time it arrives in my inbox, and I am so excited about your book (I've already pre-ordered!). When you announced the title, I turned to my husband and immediately said, "Doesn't this sound exactly like the book I need?"
thank you so much for sharing your beautiful thoughts and reflections ✨ i understand that trickiness of wanting to share while also wanting to hibernate - and i hope you find a balance that feels right to you. i can't wait for AYMAM to be in your hands! x
Doing this because Meg is an inspiration:
1. Not expressing myself in the way my true self would (creatively, needs/boundaries); protection from conflict, rejection, both failure and success
2. I’d be more attuned to my desires and would trust that my intuition is guidance enough, and focus less on (perceived) outside expectations (like sharing music and writing, simply because it’s good for the soul! Or, very specific: setting boundaries with doctors.)
yes! speak it into action 🤗
i will go on that date. im worthy of happiness.
Yes you are! Hope you have a good time ✨
I love how you framed the balance of enoughness and wanting more – we can experience a multitude of things at once. It does not have to be one or the other! Thank you for the invitation to play bigger in my life.
So glad that it resonated, Ruthie! Thank you for reading x
I play it small in all ways - I am expanding, but it feels slow. I'm learning, and it feels clunky. I pendulum swing from small to large - I've not yet found the sweet spot. I feel messy. I know that the cap is not real; it isn't there; it's a figment of my imagination. The cap feels safer, weirdly, though. It was safer. My body needs to adjust to the potential, it needs space. The cap is the edge of my capacity - to be, receive, give. There are caps beneath the caps, layers of them. But when I choose to take the weight off and place them down, I would soften into myself, I would speak more freely to share my cosmic otherness as a gift and know I am safe to do so. When I'm ready, I would be visible, so all that I have been looking for, seeking, would find me. I think I'm ready, do I feel ready, can we ever feel ready?
loving your words, Jasmine <3
I was just discussing the feeling of playing it small with my husband, though neither of us realized that is what I was talking about at the time. And it all revolved around what kind of author it is I want to be.
I am coming up on the one year anniversary of my first novel, and in that time, I feel as if I have both done a lot and not enough, unsure where it is my sense of enough lies.
Do I want to be an author who travels and talks to others about my writing more? Or am I the kind of author who is more content to take it slowly, allow people to find my work when the timing is right? Am I acting from a place f fear when I don't shout it from the rooftops, "I wrote a book!" Or am I actually staying true to myself and honoring my nervous system by stepping away from the constant hustle of promotion?
I haven't found the answer to any f these questions, but I intuitively feel the truth lies somewhere in the middle of the extremes. Thank you so much for opening up and sharing these prompts as well as your words. I really enjoy your newsletter every time it arrives in my inbox, and I am so excited about your book (I've already pre-ordered!). When you announced the title, I turned to my husband and immediately said, "Doesn't this sound exactly like the book I need?"
thank you so much for sharing your beautiful thoughts and reflections ✨ i understand that trickiness of wanting to share while also wanting to hibernate - and i hope you find a balance that feels right to you. i can't wait for AYMAM to be in your hands! x